Moving out has proved to be okay in some respects, but there are still so many things to do. So many things I should have done and haven't yet. So many boxes left to unpack. Right now I feel pretty low, its a bit like limbo. I went 'home' to see my mum, and it didn't feel right anymore. every time I've been back since I left, it has been completely okay. Today just felt wrong. They'd removed things from my room, stacked stuff. It wasn't right. It just felt wrong. I ended up crying on the driveway for quite a while. Coming back to my house, still doesn't feel like home yet. So I feel a bit out of place. I am going through the motions as best I can, but it just doesn't feel right.
I hope this improves. I should be loving it, I do think once i get my routine sorted that it will improve, its just getting the routine in place.
Hopefully it will be there before we go skiing. That's going to be interesting. Having spent 8 weeks living apart from them, being with them for 9 days could be...... hard. We will see.
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